- My Love
I just pray…and for many months now I have learned only to pray the Word of God. In my turmoil I cannot get His Word wrong, and He tells me that His Word does not return void…so there I am!
There have been many a beautiful and small sign from Father God! Oh, how does one put this into words?? Those tiny vessels that we use to communicate with one another. They just seem too fragile to describe the joy of what God will show us!
Anyway, like I was saying. In the last week my love and I have wearied much. I am not sleeping home so that I can properly care for my grandmother, she has adequate people during the day, it is at night that she would be alone. Praise God that He has provided me with employement that allows me to be available at night for her. Therefore my husband and I have done a lot of quality passings.
I of course am not sleeping well, because I am not home and on alert. Thankfully, things are going well and I believe she is truly on the mend this time! Praise God!
The last three days have been exciting here. My husband came out of his funk, and I was out of my fatigue for a moment and we talked, and it was good.
I asked him if he was still praying, unfortunately we pray on different levels and we do not pray together. He said he thought he was…that evoked in me an anger that I could not quiet. I promptly told him that wasn’t the unity we had agreed on and that it wasn’t acceptable! Blessedly we have the wonderful ability to communicate well when we do. And as I thank my God let me tell you my husband is one who is slow to anger…good for me, because I have issues with that command.
He said ok. And we went about our days. Well, sometimes when I respond to his crisis’ of faith in that manner it jolts him out of his funk. God is good and faithful to use what we give him for good!
I apologized later in the day and things were good when I left for the evening.
Our last phone call was one of those signs from God. My husband sounded happy, and this, his happiness, is my main concern. Through AA counseling I was taught that another person’s happiness is not my responsibility or business, not even my husbands. From the start I rebuked that idea!
If other’s peoples happiness and comfort was not our responsiblity why are we told in the Word to be all things to all people? I must abandon some of the concepts of AA. My, God! ( higher power) says differently.
We discussed the last few days. He finally confessed that when it comes to the finances of our family that he falls back due to fear. I thanked him for that confession, now I could pray. I believe the nag got out at that point and the conversation went into a lecture of how to pray and stay in faith. My gracious husband say I was “not at all” nagging.
I believe I haved mentioned here in this blog that we have aquired the prayer book, Prayers that avail much, by Germaine Copeland. I find this book very helpful when attempting to pray to a particular situation. Plus it is praying the Word and gives the scriptures used at the end. Very helpful, especially in trying times.
The signs from this morning:
I was driving home, in the quietness of 6 am traffic, on route 37 in New Jersey, headed sleepily towards the Garden State Parkway. On a wooded stretch of the highway the gorgeous morning clouds glowed with the sun hidden behind them.
Beautiful and pillowy these clouds had the shining silver lining we always hear about. Right there before my eyes…clouds gleaming a cylinder of light shot up and remained there, brilliant and bold…it was the tunnel!!! You know! The light at the end of the tunnel!
Except the whole tunnel was a peacful gleaming, loving light! Again, this is not even close to an accurate description! Destinctive rays fanned out from this tunnel and the clouds and I just knew God was telling me…here I am and your time of turmoil and weariness is about at it’s end! I could hear those thoughts and feel the relief of my sign.
Oh how I wish I had had my camera…I’m keeping it with me from now on!
I returned home to find my husband asleep in my spot, for the second morning in a row. Tears coming to my eyes, because I miss him too! He even still had his sneakers on. Funny how they just run amuk when we are away, like 12 year olds!
Our morning then took on the normal routine. The boys off to work…waking my husband from his deep sleep. Coffee and Fox local news for the weather…I fell asleep. My husband came out of his office, ready for work. I sat up and he handed me the prayer book. Groggily I asked him what…He asked me to “find one”. I found the prayer for household finances and told him I thought he could start with that one, plus there was a really good part about unity. And I reminded him to make the prayers his own, mainly because not all of them are exactly what we believe (that all prayer should be in thanksgiving, and that all things are already done, simple doctrinal differences). But also because all prayers are someone’s and ours should be our own petition and thanksgiving, not another man’s words, no matter how anointed that man may be.
My husband’s response was no, find one for us to pray! My second sign for today! So I promptly went to the prayer for submitting all to God and we began to pray with me reading and adapting the prayer to us, as a couple and as a family. What a joy. My husband left this morning with a smile and I fell back to sleep praying thanks and joy and just all those things that do not have adequate description in words.
My third sign was the New Thing Ministry Devotional “Little Things”. I will post it here because it is not in the archives yet…bear with me…I find these things vital!
A New Thing Ministries
The Little Things
On June 23, several people sent me an email from The Elijah List with a prophetic word and teaching by Mark Chironna.
For several days I have read and re-read this article and there is one part that I feel impressed of the Lord to share with you. I will put the complete prophetic word in the next section of the motivation but I want to point out this one part, if I may.
“Pay attention to the signposts, for they are the meaningful coincidences that I bring you through to let you know that this is Me. This is Me. This is Me. These are the things I will do,” saith the Lord, “and I will not leave them undone for this is a season of the acceleration of momentum and the beginning of small that leads to large miracles.
“Despise not the small miracles. If you will celebrate them, they will get bigger. Begin where you are. Take the next easiest step of faith and discover that what is being stirred up in you is about to be manifest in the events of your life,” saith the Spirit of Grace.
A signpost is defined as a guide, a beacon, an indication. God is saying to look for the little things – little miracles, little provisions, little improvements in your marriage, little improvement in your health.
He is saying to look for these little things because they are a guide to the big things, they are an indication that you have stepped into a new place of blessing and it is the little things that lead to the big things.
You know, it is like a dam that holds back tons of water – the breaking of that dam will begin will a small hole in the dam, the size of a pin, with just a little water trickling through – however, before long more and more water pushes its way through and before you know it all the water has broken through.
God is saying this is how it is going to be in this season – it will begin with little things. But we have to pay attention to the little things. We have to recognize the little things because it is only when we celebrate the little things that God will cause them to get bigger and bigger until the fullness of the blessing of this season is released upon us.
As we celebrate the little things – we will see an acceleration of things and they will become bigger and bigger. If we don’t recognize and celebrate the little things – we will not see the big things.
Have you seen the evidence of small things in your life lately? Have there been MOMENTS when you could see the hand of God at work in your marriage? Did it seem better just for a moment? Did your health appear improved, just for a moment? Did you receive a small financial increase? Did you experience a moment of hope that you haven’t felt in a long time?
If you have experienced any of these ’small’ things – I encourage you today to celebrate them – make a big deal over them. Appreciate them as you would if they were really big miracles – tell God how very grateful you are for these little things. These little things are your indication that the bigger things are here too – but first, we must be thankful for the little things.
If you are faithful over little – God will make you ruler over much. Are you being faithful to praise Him for the little things?
I had never really thought about it like this until last night – but I can assure you that from now on I will be as thankful for the little things as I am for the big things – they are my signpost – leading me to the fullness of my blessing – they are my indication that the fullness of my inheritance and my promise in God is here.
‘Father, today, I thank YOU for the little things!!!’ ‘I take today and celebrate the little things!’
Kim Potter
I recall that during our conversation last night that I described some recent “little things” that God had given me and that I wanted those things for him. I wanted him to watch for the little things, so that he could be comforted too. I believe this…that as a couple in unity we will prosper, yet I also believe that we walk out our own salvation. Therefore there will be things we, my husband and I, will naturally go through individually, seemingly alone. However, if I am always aware of his spiritual health, and he mine, we can pray safely and in unity for each other.
His battle is mine, I was made to be his helpmate. Submitted to God and to him, always, to see to it that we remain as one. Just as God had intended it.
O’ Boy I am blessed!
Blessings!
