Happy 2013 … Happy Thursday … It’s good to be back with my heart in a place to write.
I’m not going to rehash the troubles of the last month or so; let’s just say I was stretched and I have grown. But no so much that I am not still trudging through some of the mire left on my path. How about you?
Resolutions? NOPE, this lady doesn’t do resolutions … there is enough imperfection in my life that I choose NOT to set myself for instant failure.
What I do is the ONE WORD thing at the beginning of a year. I think this is the third year I’ve taken this path and I find I do quite well.
2013′s word is PEACEFUL, a nice word don’t you think? What I like about the One Word movement is that the chosen word has a meaning. Meaning (haha) I don’t have to define what it is I’m striving for, and I can’t really change what I’m striving for.
So peaceful it is … whether it is a more peaceful me, or a peaceful night or day or atmosphere or home or …. well you get the gist!
I also entered into a plan, with The Hubs (my husband, Don.) to pray and spend time with God in the morning. Oddly this appears to be God’s focus all over the place … Don and I discussed it a few months ago only to find out that prayer and intimacy with God as individuals and a church was our pastors focus for 2013. Ha, I am always amazed that we, the Hubs and I, are so in tuned with our God that we are on the path even as the churches reveal their focus.
Anyway … personally I find that I continue to deal with apathy. Basically in many areas of my life … but lately, especially the last quarter of 2012, it is contained in my work(s) and in my spiritual life. Both are bad places to have an attitude of apathy, however, apathy in my spiritual life was causing the sensation of a slow death.
So the plan. Prayer, time with God and devotions. We are using a prayer-book to assist with proper prayers in the areas we are focusing on … Prayers that avail much are prayers and areas of prayer written in scripture, with the scripture references right there for the reading (can’t go wrong praying scripture.)
And for me … I am reading a section a day from Oswald Chambers‘ the Shadow of Agony (written during WWI, the book speaks to our everyday right now!) and 70 Reasons for Speaking in Tongues by Dr. Bill Hamon.
To this I’ve added Unglued by Lysa TerKeurst. In which I find myself right among her words. I am an Unglued person … easily unraveled by the circumstances of a moment, day, year … whatever.
I must admit that I handled the strife and crisis of the last few months with great restraint and composure; but underneath I was the same old writhing mess that I usually exhibit. My friend/sponsor/counselor would tell you how proud she is of me for handling the circumstances the way the I did … she encouraged me and my strength and growth throughout it all … but I felt as though I was faking it.
And as a believer in Jesus Christ I don’t feel right about the “fake it till you make it” plan. For me faking it is just another way of stuffing down the anger and pain; it does me no good.
On Day 2 of Unglued Devotional Lysa shares with us this verse, that caressed my tired and worn out spirit to want to write!
Practice these things; immerse yourself in them, so that all may see your progress. – 1 Timothy 4:15
“Sometimes we girls think if we don’t make instant progress, then real change isn’t coming. But that’s not so.” How liberating is that? Really!
I realized, while working the slow carb diet I started in April of 2012, that the illusion that if we messed up the diet that all was lost was a BIG FAT LIE. And I began to not chastise myself for slips in the plan and jump right back on … and I succeeded in losing and maintaining a loss of 35 pounds.
That is right up until the crisis’ began to pile up, along with the temptation of the holidays!
But alas … all was not lost even with a three-month slip … today I am right back to tracking my meals and eating according to the slow carb diet and my goal remains the same, save a month or so. A month? Didn’t I just say three months? Yes, I did, however, I only gained about 8 pounds which is my basic average of weight loss a month on this nutritional plan. Not such a big slip if you think about it.
So to end this rather lengthy blog post … I hope to share with you at least once or twice a week. Talking about real life things and how I have conquered or failed at them … Hoping that you will find some encouragement in my walk through this life I’ve been graced with.
First I plan to be faithful to my relationship with God … then to my goals and plans; one of which is to write.
I’m going to start with the small things …Me.
God’s Word says, “If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones.” Luke 16:10
Mother Theresa said, “Be faithful in small things because it is in them that your strength lies.”