{I’ve been} READY | A FMF Post


It’s Friday [well almost] and I’m joining the Five Minute Friday group again. Just five minutes of writing what’s on my heart, from my heart, without worry about the perfection of my words. No edits, no spell checks just my heart and this blinking cursor in this WordPress box!

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This weeks prompt is … Ready!

Set … and Go!

Since September 3, 2013 I’ve been READY for this season to be over! Yes, from day one! And I ask, who would not be ready?

A cancer diagnosis does so much to a person in a years time; to a family, to a wife and to the afflicted! It changes everything!

For the most part The Hubs is doing amazingly well. I’ve read snippets and heard some about how lung cancer is a horrible thing. Well, duh! I’d say any cancer is a horrible thing! But he is really doing well. We’ve had some rough times here in Hutchland lately; this second round of chemo is rougher than the first round with the radiation. But they are being more aggressive because a “little” spot moved to his liver. Still … he’s up and doing his thing most days.

But we’re ready for this to be over! And God knows we are; though the docs are being the docs and saying what they have to say and it can be very discouraging! They see the improvements and raise their eyebrows in obvious disbelief when they hear his lung functioning normally when just a year ago it was completely closed. In fact they are more focused on the liver this round than the lung! Though it still causes them pause that the lung is functioning.

Yet their words are cautious and their prognosis is guarded.

They don’t know our God, I imagine. Their words betray their lack of knowledge of the promises. So we wait and see, they test and treat, and The Hubs is making his decisions whether or not to continue; which gives me pause.

But …. All in God’s timing right? We are ready whenever He is. Hopefully sooner than later!

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O’ Lord this man.
We declare and decree the Word of God.
“Greater is He that is in you than He that is in the world.”
“By His stripes you are healed.”
“No weapon formed against you shall prosper.”
“You shall not die but live and declare the works of the Lord.”
“Don’t forget the benefits of God. He heals all our diseases.”
“The Lord will restore health to you and heal you of your wounds.”
“Affliction will not rise up a second time.”
“The power of the Lord is present to heal you.”

Until then we hold firm to the promise of healing: “He sent out His Word and healed them; He rescued them from the grave.” Psalm 107:20

We’re READY!

STOP.

Andrea

Andrea

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I Believe God | A Tuesday at Ten Post


Believe God

Believe God

It’s Tuesday and it’s just past 10am. I’ve been waiting on this prompt since last night. Anxious to write again … I have much on my mind; much that God has placed in me. Where to start … Childlike Faith, or Healing or answers from heaven … where do I start.

Lately God has returned my ability to read; or maybe it’s just my need to be somewhere else in this season of trial. Still I believe God renewed my ability to read so that I could read books that would lead me to His truths about life and healing. The books I’ve been devouring lately: The Fault in Our Stars, Heaven is For Real and Healing the Sick. He’s pulling me closer to Him in this.

It’s been a year and two days since cancer showed up to test the very core of our faith; and it has put forth a formidable battle, but we know we win because we are in Christ.

So what do I believe?

I believe God.

I believe God is.

I believe that God is Love and that God Loves the children. I believe we are those children.

I believe that God is Who He is and that He will act accordingly.

I believe that God’s character is something that I can completely submit to.

I believe that I can rest in Him; intimately and actively.

I believe in healing; that it is for today and that it is complete.

I believe:

  • “Greater is He that is in you than He that is in the world.”
  • “By His stripes you are healed.”
  • “No weapon formed against you shall prosper.”
  • “You shall not die but live and declare the works of the Lord.”
  • “Don’t forget the benefits of God. He heals all our diseases.”
  • “The Lord will restore health to you and heal you of your wounds.”
  • “Affliction will not rise up a second time.”
  • “The power of the Lord is present to heal you.”

I believe prayer changes things and moves the hand of God. {I believe that prayer is the only thing that moves the Hand of God!}

  • Oh, Lord I believe, help me with my unbelief!  Mark 9:24

I could go on forever with this … on and on and on to infinity. But how does what I believe help in this trial here in Hutchland?

Belief is a tricky thing in my thinking. You see I think to “believe in” is incomplete; it allows for fantasy, magical thinking and those things allow doubt. I don’t believe “in” God…

I BELIEVE GOD!

Believing God helps me in a way that I’m having trouble expressing. It’s all the reading really; so much information being processed.

It’s this: I believe God at His word. I have to! At almost 50 I’ve embraced my need for control and full information; there are just things in life that I cannot control; there are things in this life that ONLY GOD controls! And if I think about it that is such a relief! I don’t have to worry about the outcome, Father God has the answer, and will tell me in His time. I can simply go about living our life to the fullest, enjoying the quality and abundance of the moment to moment in this trial.

God is the first man that I could trust, my husband the second. Only those two do I believe … and when I cannot trust or believe what I am seeing or hearing or experiencing I BELIEVE GOD.

It’s that simple.

It wasn’t always this way; in fact I’m sure there are still areas, hidden at present, of my life, where I will still have to work on. But after “c” they will be quickly managed and set right.

It’s simple; I look around me and I believe  our Father Creator exists.

One, I’m alive and I shouldn’t be (that’s another post). Two, I was allowed to create two perfect lives in my sons. We were created in his image therefore we are able to create!

I look around at the trees and the flowers and the clouds and just all this wondrous beauty and I think, ‘how can I not believe?’

I believe God at His Word. I believe His promises. I believe His love.

I BELIEVE GOD!

John 3:14-18—And as Moses lifted up the serpent in the wilderness, even so must the Son of Man be lifted up, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have eternal life.  For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life.  For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.  He who believes in Him is not condemned; but he who does not believe is condemned already, because he has not believed in the name of the only begotten Son of God.

How could I not? =)

Andrea

Andrea

Tuesday @ Ten

Tuesday @ Ten

Whisper a little prayer …


When I saw this prompt for Five Minute Friday my first thought {like on Tuesday @ 10} was a song; but this one I found, because it came immediately to my mind singing.

 

So here we are again … Five Minute Friday, where 100s of bloggers write from there hearts with abandon. No worries, no edits and no rewrites. Just five minutes from one heart to another without self criticism. After all we all write about the good, the bad, and the ugly of our journeys … so what does it manner if sentence structure or syntax is perfect, just this once. Sometimes, most times really, what comes from the heart is raw and jaggedly beautiful in it’s honesty!

So write with us … tell us your heart in 5 minutes … we will not criticize or critique … we will just encourage and join you in prayer and recognize your feelings as having been or actually being as ours are at this moment.

So here goes nothing, again!

[whisper]  go …

Like I said this song rose in me … Dedicated to the One I Love by The Mamas and The Papas.

Each night before you go to bed, my baby,
Whisper a little prayer for me my baby.
And tell all the stars above
This is dedicated to the one I love.

But the words change … Each night before I go to bed, my baby … I whisper a little prayer for you, my baby … because that is where my heart is.

Each night, each day, continually, I whisper prayers.

For The Hubs. The blood transfusion has not helped with his stamina and he still feels weak and frustrated by the lack of energy. We talked about it last night. All of it. His desire to stop the treatments after the next round. And I whisper a prayer, trying not to be manipulative with God, that The Hubs may change his mind.

He shares with me that he’s not so sure the cancer is killing him, but he’s sure the chemo is. That’s a big thing! So I whisper a prayer that God make me strong; because while quitting the treatments is frightening, the alternative is just as daunting. A vicious circle from hell really.

But God … He’s bigger than that circle. He says I don’t have to worry about that circle … as I listen to His still small voice, I know that HE IS GOD.

I whisper a little prayer for you, my baby …

I whisper prayers for my boys …

For my youngest and his battle over addiction. I pray that God instill in him the need for assistance along this path of sobriety. I whisper prayers each morning that he is alive, because something is going on and I know what I am seeing but cannot do anything about it. This disease is killing him and he has to choose … no medicine to make him feel weak and lifeless [his drug does that!] … no radiation to burn out this cancer … and addiction is the deadliest cancer!

So I whisper prayers … with tears and heartache … I whisper for life and life more abundant, knowing that it is ours and I trust.

Sometimes I trust in whispers to Father … sometimes I shout, but lately it’s simple whispered prayers dedicated to the one’s I love.

stop

 

Andrea

Andrea

Time … Where does it go?


It’s time again … Tuesday @10.

I am joining Karen over on her blog, Finding the Grace Within, for her new Tuesday night blog link up where you have all day {10am – 6am} to use the prompt word to your liking! It’s not about writing perfectly, or even writing … it’s about connecting with one another creatively!

Whether it be just writing a story behind the prompt word, or being as creative as you wish using photos, poems, art, or graphics – whichever creative way you choose.

 

Today’s prompt: [TIME] Go…

When I saw the prompt today, while sitting beside The Hubs during his chemotherapy I kept hearing the scattered lyrics of a song from the ’80s that  I am now wasting time trying to figure out. =)

I’ve been pondering time most of my life and have come to the conclusion it is man made and subject to my needs. Yeah … I think like that! But I’ve also proven it over the years. When I was younger I thought I was willing time to slow to my pace or speed up for my enjoyment and entertainment purposes. Today I know that it is God’s time and he will adjust it for me to my needs; but I must ask.

Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously,

and he will give you everything you need.
 ~ Matthew 6:33

This summer, heck this last year, and it’s a year now, has just vanished! There were fabulous times like holiday and our pre-mother’s day vacation with all the kids and grand kids. There were very hard times like chemotherapy and reports we didn’t care for and the death of a loved one and not being able to be apart of some things we would have loved to because of the appointments and treatments.

The year, the summer, just got away.

However, all these things caused us to cherish the Time we did have … the good, the bad, the hard, and the ugly. All of those things just a part of this season we are journeying through. This journey through life together that truly knows no time. But God knows the timing.

A Time for Everything

There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:

    a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
    a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
    a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,
    a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
    a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
    a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
    a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.

What do workers gain from their toil? 10 I have seen the burden God has laid on the human race. 11 He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end. 12 I know that there is nothing better for people than to be happy and to do good while they live. 13 That each of them may eat and drink, and find satisfaction in all their toil—this is the gift of God. 14 I know that everything God does will endure forever; nothing can be added to it and nothing taken from it. God does it so that people will fear him.

I just have to rely on God knowing that this is a season in our lives and a few steps of His great plan for us in the Kingdom.

We will continue to milk our time of all it’s joy and laughter. Even today, as The Hubs was enduring 8 hours of chemo and fatigue and weakness and lack of appetite and, and, and … we found time to laugh and talk and enjoy the time we had together there in our little cubicle.

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An hour to go!
Don’s Boots.

I posted this today just over an hour before he was done. He hates his picture to be taken, though he tolerates me and the cameras sometimes, I would never post the full photo of his treatments out of respect for him. But I just love this one. His feet crossed like he’s just relaxing at home. Like many of my friends on FB said today, they love his boots. They are just him and most of our friends and loved ones would identify The Hubs this way. =)

Time … We must take the time to enjoy and love one another on this journey and most importantly: We MUST tell them we love them and cherish them! Because my friends:

All the TIME in this world is too short; and we cannot take the risk of missing the chance to tell them what they mean to us!

The Time is NOW!

Give us your best on the prompt {TIME} … like I said it’s running short and the window for this post is closing fast!

=) Thanks for reading and blessings to you.

Andrea

Andrea

Tuesday @ Ten

Tuesday @ Ten

God’s Faithful and Infinite …. Reach| A FMF Post


Time for Five Minute Friday, the unedited flash mob free write!

No edits, no corrections. Just five minutes of writing from your heart to share.

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Today’s Prompt|REACH … Go!

 

Reaching Out

Reaching Out

OH, How far is His reach? How far away can one get before He reaches out and retrieves them?

“He reached down from heaven and rescued me; he drew me out of deep waters.” – Psalm 18:16, NLT 

I’ve been in a far away place since Tuesday. I’ve been accused, or should I kindly say that I’ve been counseled, that I am weak of faith, or out of faith or in a crisis of faith in regards to the report we got from the doctor that day.

I have been battling those things that weaken one’s faith. With prayer, scriptures and with considering those accusation and counsel, and I must add ALL of the encouragement; there was much more encouragement than criticism. But …. the days were hard, not only with the Doc’s words, but with the anger and discouragement they brought for both me and so much more for The Hubs. Considering what was spoken and what I already knew would be The Hubs’ response there was a lot in my head, and it wasn’t good.

I had gotten far away from what I knew to be truth. Even though I spoke that truth and rebuked the lies, I got lost in my own human-ness and fear and anger began to mix itself into that depression batter that we sometimes find ourselves in.

And then … last night, to make an already hard day bad, someone posted something so … I cannot even say it out loud let alone type it here, and I was crushed and really began to fight back. It took the post, both private and public (here) to make me stand up and really fight it.

It’s been a long day today, fighting what hurt and frightened me deeply, but I am here reaching for that peace beyond my understanding.

And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:4


We must seek, and I forgot to seek, first the Kingdom of God … that is when we can ask whatever from Father and He will reach down from heaven and rescue us and give us not only what we need, but more, what our hearts desire! Matthew 6:33

You see … The Lord will perfect that which concerns me; Your mercy, O Lord, endures forever;” Psalm 138:8

Your love, Lord, reaches to the heavens, your faithfulness to the skies. Psalm 36:5

Stop!

Indulge me if you would. My 5 minutes are up, I just wanted to apologize if this post is scattered. But that’s what FMF is about, after all. I’d like to say that I am finally better tonight, I think I’m over the hump of this thing and finding my way back to me after many days of being “ME-BC”. Thanks for reading and always remember … God loves us, expects us to be human and expects us to reach out to Him when we are in need. So if you are in need, if you are frightened or hurt or angry reach out to God … Press into God and He will press into YOU!

Oh, that we might know the Lord!
    Let us press on to know him.
He will respond to us as surely as the arrival of dawn
    or the coming of rains in early spring.” Hosea 6:3

Andrea

Andrea

 

O’ Lord this man of mine


Good morning, at least I pray yours is. =)

Me, HopeAnnFaith, mine is not going so well. I still have my hope and my faith; but I am battling a report from yesterday.

Today I find myself angry.
The Hubs is fine. Doing quite well in fact, and he’s made whatever decisions he made about the report yesterday, though I don’t know what exactly that is, yet; I do know we are proceeding with the next two rounds.

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O’ Lord this man

O’ Lord, this man of mine! What will I do ….. !?!

As for me, I am having issues with what the Doctor said. Essentially he said that the chemo would not end, until it doesn’t work anymore, and then we would move on to something else or we would stop, should The Hubs choose to stop treatments, whichever comes first.

Which means, in the medical translation, that this illness will take over at some point.

I know that this is completely UNACCEPTABLE in God’s plan. This does not fit into God’s Word so it is NOT truth.


Like I said, The Hubs is doing well, so the whole of the report was not bad. The Doc did say (about that “new” enlarged lymph node) that it makes no sense that a therapy that is working in the lungs and the liver is not working in other areas; being that the treatment is carried through the bodies system by the blood, which travels every area of the body. (I was happy with his optimism in this respect). The Doc is optimistic, obviously, that The Hubs is healthy enough to continue treatments.

That said, we both noticed that The Doc seemed down the whole time. Not quite as “happy” as usual. Now that could mean he was just having a not good day, or he was tired, or overwhelmed getting back into the flow after a wonderful vacation. The Docs “mood” let’s say could have nothing to do will the CAT scan reports or the techs insistence that the lymph node is newly enlarged. His demeanor could just be a personal thing, but we were deeply aware that he seemed “not himself”.

Back to the subject: I have to hang onto the phrase “I cannot” tell you it’s gone because it has moved. He cannot? Why? Maybe because of protocol or the legalities of malpractice.
A year ago, when this all began, we purposely asked him not to tell us the stage so that it was not put in our heads and more so, on my part, because we believe in the creative authority of our spoken words. He respected that … yet somehow we got here, with the words from yesterday. I need them to be rebuked, because they cannot be unsaid.
I have to meditate on the concept that God’s Word says this is not acceptable or I’m going to shut down.

I have to believe God at His Word.

There is no alternative.

I am angry and fighting fear. I am fighting trying to plan for the whatifs. I am fighting envisioning life alone.

I am fighting for what I know to be true, without being able to see it in the natural.
Lord, please, I believe, I do. Please help me with my unbelief!

I saw a inspirational quote on Facebook this morning, so I decided to be creative with it.

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Strong Enough – A Reminder

Well, thanks for reading. I hope my trials somehow help someone to know they are not alone in these things that make up our lives.

Always remember, God’s got it all in hand; and when you’re ready you can hand Him your trial too; He’ll handle it for you. That is Grace. Because, Father Loves us unconditionally … think of how you love your children or your pet or whom ever it is you love … then think, How much more does God love me? I tell you true, His love for YOU is infinite! Eternal! Forever and ever and ever … infinity!

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O’ This Man

Andrea

Andrea

 

Be Careful What You Listen To! | A Tuesday @ Ten Post


Tuesday @ Ten

Tuesday @ Ten

Good evening my friends and Welcome to the second Tuesday at Ten!

I am joining Karen over on her blog, Finding the Grace Within, for her new Tuesday night blog link up where you have all day {10am – midnight} to use the prompt word to your liking! It’s not about writing perfectly, or even writing … it’s about connecting with one another creatively!

Whether it be just writing a story behind the prompt word, or being as creative as you wish using photos, poems, art, or graphics – whichever creative way you choose.

So go and write and link up your blog at the bottom her page {the link is above} so that others can link up with you. Be sure to visit your “link up” neighbor and spread the joy of connection!

Karen will choose writers and their writings to be posted on the blog and the Tuesday at Ten Facebook page each week, so join us in this gathering and give us your best take on …

 

Listen … Go!

Today was a bit rough, and this post will probably be short … a little like FMF posts. =)

24 Years

Then while we live, in love let’s so persever

The Hubs had his check up appointment with the oncologist today. Things are good … the lungs are great, far from where we are a year ago when diagnosed! And the spot(s) that moved to the liver are diminishing in size; all the glory and honor to God! These are fabulous reports.

The CAT scan from last week showed what the techs felt was a “new” lymph node (meaning they felt it had enlarged) that they felt was of concern. The doc did not feel that its was “new” nor that it was of concern.

All that said he is scheduled for two more rounds of chemo – that’s 6 weeks time spent on chemo and not feeling great and waiting.

So I asked, is this going to help the spot(s) on the liver be gone. And as I listened to the answer I was not happy with what I heard, but I listened. Apparently because the cancer cells traveled to the liver [though it's still lung cancer, go figure.] , they can NEVER tell us that the cancer is gone!

WHAT! REALLY! Am I really hearing the word never???

I cannot express what listening to that word did to me at that moment.

But God …

His word says we’re healed. That we were healed by Jesus’ stripes 2000 + years ago. And I HAVE to listen to the word and not what I hear from the world!

Proverbs 30:5-6

5“Every word of God is flawless;
    he is a shield to those who take refuge in him.
Do not add to his words,
    or he will rebuke you and prove you a liar.

God’s Word says we are healed … that no illness can take hold of us! Any other report is unacceptable! Never say never, because God is in control! His Word is flawless and our shield.

I must admit that as I write this … and it’s turning out not to be so short! =) I am once again numb of body and mind. The Hubs has said from day one … just short of a year ago … that he is not living this way for the rest of his life, and today I didn’t fight him when he repeated what was in his heart. I was silent and numb. I cannot beg him to keep going on being poisoned and ill and irritable … I cannot demand that he continue to live what the doctors feel is a quality life while he feels that his life is being governed by an illness that we refuse to give in to every day. And I cannot think about the alternative …

I must listen to what Father God says.

Jeremiah 29:11-14 – 11 For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. 12 Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. 13 You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. 14 I will be found by you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back from captivity.[b] I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the Lord, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.

God has spent the last year showing His glory through my husband and this trial we are in. His left lung, completely closed a year ago is open and functioning normally. He does not get nauseous and ill between therapies. He lives his life as best he can with very little side effects! And the docs react to his life with surprise and a touch of awe. OH how I wish they knew our God … if they did they would never say the word never in relation to healing!

So to wrap this up I remain ambivalent tonight. It’s been a long day, a long year actually! But I have to remember this … The Hubs was, I thought, talking to himself all the way home, while I prayed quietly and thankfully for God’s Word. When we got home I asked what he was talking to himself about, hoping he was praying too. And to my surprise he said he was singing =) … I asked him what he was singing and he told me “Time is on my side.”  Isnt’ that great!

I think singing is a form of prayer, most times, and I know this was and I know God listened and heard both of us! He is always faithful to keep His promises and His Word!

Psalm 18:6 – In my distress I called to the Lord;
I cried to my God for help.
From his temple he heard my voice;
my cry came before him, into his ears.

Andrea

Andrea

Now it’s your turn … We’re all ready to listen to you!

To Accept the things … Change | A Five Minute Friday Post


Here we are again. Friday. Five minutes of free, from the heart, honest and unchecked writing. FMF has a new home and everyone is welcome.  Come join us and connect with 200+ writers as we bear our hearts with one another, abandoning the restraints of rules and proof reads. Just our hearts and our words writing on the same prompt. The only rule is to write for 5 minutes only with no editing. Just throw caution to the wind and let the cursor follow your heart on to this virtual blank page.

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That’s the heart and fun of this really … reading what another heart feels about the prompt and encouraging them in this journey of writing that we are all on.

 

This weeks prompt is, drum roll please …. CHANGE. Go!

To accept the things I cannot change.

To accept the things I cannot change.

Change and serenity! Really? The thing I could not accept for the longest time was that I could have a sense of serenity when things were about to/in the middle of/or had already changed!

The two seem to be the antitheses of one another, wouldn’t you agree? Most would. You hear them all the time … I think at one time or another each and every human being has made the statements, “I hate change!” or “I just want things to go back to the way they were!”

But do we really? In our natural selves we like our nice comfortable little now. Even if that now is not the height of joy or passion or even just happy and content. We are comfortable with our now and don’t want to look forward to who we will be in the next moment.

And that is the point … Change dictates that I am not the same person I was when I began this post. This post, this prompt, has ignited creativity in my being and at that moment I changed.

Nothing earth shattering just a little shift in my outlook on life or my attitude … a change.

We change from moment to moment. And the bible has a wonderful scripture that, now, makes the changes in my life more acceptable:

2 Corinthians 3:18

As all of us reflect the Lord’s glory with faces that are not covered with veils, we are being changed into his image from glory to glory. This comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.

I’m still working on the acceptance of those things I cannot change; but eventually I hand them to God to handle. I’m getting better about that. And then there’s the courage to change the things I can … now that’s a BIG one … but that’s for another post!

Stop!

Your turn now … click the FMF logo up top and join us!

Andrea

Andrea

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Gather … ing … T@T


Good evening my friends and Welcome to Tuesday at Ten! I am joining Karen over on her blog, Finding the Grace Within, for her new Tuesday night blog Link up where you have 24 hours to use the prompt word to your liking! It’s not about writing perfectly, or even writing … it’s about connecting with one another creatively!

Whether it be just writing a story behind the prompt word, or being as creative as you wish using photos, poems, art, or graphics – whichever creative way you choose.

You have 24 hours to write and link up your blog at the bottom her page {the link is above} so that others can link up with you. Be sure to visit your “link up” neighbor and spread the joy of connection! Karen will choose writers and their writings to be posted on the blog and the Tuesday at Ten Facebook page each week, so join us in this gathering and give us your best take on …

Gather – go!

Gathering

Gathering

When I ponder the word Gather these days it’s about gathering things to me … not necessarily people, they’re aren’t many around in my current isolated circumstance.  In fact, as lonely as I get sometimes with what’s going on I find myself digressing to my old self and hoping people won’t be around. It’s really a vicious circle for me; the old behavior, I mean. This allows me to indulge in my self-protecting isolation. I hurt so much sometimes, lately, that I don’t want people around, I don’t want to know that they don’t call because they don’t know what to say so it’s easier for them to stay away and while that thought hurts me, I don’t initially do anything about it.

For me it’s gathering those spiritual things that help us to push through the tough times. I have to gather the courage to get through some days; many days lately. The courage to face the facts of The Hubs’ illness. The courage to not break down in tears because the illness is making him tired and absent a lot of the time.

I have to gather the faith to pray. Frankly I have to gather the random access memory in my brain to remember to pray, sometimes.

So how do I handle the isolation and the constant urge not to gather … not to connect?

Quite simply I do the next right thing, even if I don’t want to.

I find things like today’s link up and I gather in with all of you wonderfully talented and spiritually connected writers and I write. Sometimes my writing surprises me with it’s eloquent message and sometimes it’s simply words gathered on a page expressing my feelings or describing my day … not necessarily fit for others to read but necessary for me to continue on this journey of mine.

When I sit with my sponsor and we work through whatever we are working through she always reminds me that the sharing of my thoughts or feelings or just my day cuts the hurt and the pain in half, each time. And for someone who naturally prefers to isolate that is vitally important; as is the gathering with others.

The Word says …. “For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them.” Matthew 18:20. For the most part I believe I gather here, at these link ups, where we all meet, with other godly women, in pursuit of connecting our faith, in one place, in His name, to make this world a better place. Or at least to make the day better for each other. Helping each other on this journey called life. =)

Gathered

Gathered

I know for me it makes my world a better place. Thank you.

Andrea

Andrea

Fill … FMF


Here we are again. Friday. Five minutes of free, from the heart, honest and unchecked writing. FMF has a new home and everyone is welcome. Follow this:

and hook up with the 200+ writers as we bear our hearts with one another, abandoning the restraints of rules and proof reads. Just our hearts and our words writing on the same prompt. JOIN US! We only ask that you read and leave some love for the writer who hooked up before you. That’s the heart and fun of this really … reading what another heart feels about the prompt and encouraging them in this journey of writing that we are all on.

The Prompt today: Fill … Go!

I strive today to fill my heart with the word of God; while life is attempting to fill it with fear!

For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. 2 Timothy 1:7

I continue to fill my heart and mind and spirit with this scripture today … You see The Hubs ran a fever again Wednesday night and Thursday; with this new chemo regime it seems that 2 weeks after the treatment he runs a fever for  a day or two. But with this one his back hurts a LOT; worse than ever, he says. So I start praying; keeping the fear at bay, because we know he is healed! The lung is open and working, for the most part everything is good.

So because one of the poisons they use to kill this cancer requires us to call if he has back pain I called. The “on call” doctor asked the most frightening question since this all started almost a year ago … “Has the cancer moved to his bones?” My body went numb from the infill of fear and my mind screamed as I, somehow calmly, said no, there’s been no indication that anything like that has happened. And she went on to offer a strong narcotic for the pain, which The Hubs refused, because it couldn’t be called in … we’ll get it Monday, he said, when we’re there for chemo, if I still need it.

Oh, Lord I believe, help me overcome my unbelief! Mark 9:24. I like the NIV … it reminds me that when I fill myself with the Word of God I overcome!

So today I fill myself with affirmations … I went to my meeting with my ladies where we are doing a bible study on the Grace of God – one of Joyce Meyers books.

I un-filled my anger and fear by sharing it with the girls and we discussed it and the teaching helped immensely.

You see, it’s all about what we fill ourselves with and it’s a choice with each circumstance.

Am I going to fill my heart, mind and spirit with what the world says or am I going to be diligent and obedient and fill myself to overflowing with what God says?

I look at it this way … the Lord dwells within me and the world cannot fit in there with Him … So I say Lord fill me today with your Spirit and allow that YOUR Spirit to overfill me to overflowing so that others who might be experiencing what I am experiencing will know they are not alone today and that there is rescue and rest in You, Father.

STOP!

So I ask you today … what are you filling yourself with? I encourage you to comment here and let me know, maybe we can help one another stay filled with the Light of His Word.

My Heart

My Heart