Wow … such a short reprieve from the chaos.
Mom is settling in near my sister in the great state of Florida …
she they have a hard year ahead. Too many firsts and adjustments, but in the end with prayer and work things will work themselves out for mom’s new life.
The boy’s (my youngest) struggles continue to the stress and extra work for the family … but I don’t know any other way to deal with his problems. This momma knows that these things do not come out except with prayer and fasting! [Mark 9:29] So we struggle and take some ground and catch up again when it’s lost.
Then grandma gets the illness that is currently filling the beds at the hospitals in the area … she’s doing well enough, but sick all the same and not ready yet to return to living alone with just a few hours of home health assistance throughout the day. She has come to that conclusion and is requesting rehab instead of fighting it; this is both the hardest decisions she has to make and the best ones, all at the same time.
And all the time I have peace. Even as I “lose” my temper, it seems, I have clarity and the right words and calm to get the point across without blowing up … hence the quotation marks around lose.
I’m not hitting the wall … I’m not ending my day with exhausted insomnia … I’m not even worried about what may happen tomorrow.
Even as my head begins a dull ache and my stomach threatens that I may have …. NOPE … that is utterly unacceptable and I will do what I know to do and stand upon the prayer of protection I prayed over myself as I drove to the ER on Monday morning to meet grandma. The prayer, that by the end of the day, I realized the Holy Spirit had brought to me because He knew what I was walking into even as I did not!
Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. Ephesians 6:13
And even as I check my armor of God and straighten it I know that these physical ailments will not be what they are trying to be … How do I know, you ask?
Because as the contractor friend, we are considering for repairs we need from the natural storms, here at the Jersey Shore two months ago, showed up EARLY this morning, during our Go! Go! routine, telling us that he wants to bless us, dogs barking and all, I realize that our commitment to deepen our (the Hubs and I) relationship with God has started the blessings flowing.
As my husband and I strained to listen above the barking, the Hubs with his reservations about doing the work now and me with my desire for it to be done even while I said to him whatever decision he made was fine with me …
Even as all this went on … Peace … the peace that this morning at 6am I began praying over my family … that peace that surpasses all understanding … that peace that He left for us … Jesus, my Savior, my Heart, my Redeemer … Jesus that Peace …
Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. John 14:27
Even as the storm that would be Thursday began to churn … Jesus, my Peace, poured over me and filled my day with ease and calm.
Oh, how I appreciate and treasure this love He has for me on such a different level than even last month …
Peace … Prayer changes everything … even the atmosphere of chaos.
What is your “even as …” today … What peace do you need ?… what peace have you experienced today? Please share or ask or both in comments … let’s travel this journey together.